Giving Up

One day My oldest child Nathan set up a little made up stage and asked for the whole family to watch him do magic tricks. We all gathered around him and watched in anticipation to be tricked. As he performed the first trick, he had some glitches and we could clearly see what he was trying to do . The next time he had this handkerchief and actually stumped me for a minute and then a pretend finger fell off his hand into his magic box. We had a good laugh , but it wasn’t until he performed his final trick that we actually were stumped. He asked for us to look at something in the distance and not knowing what to expect we did. Then he started this really cool quarter trick. First he had one quarter disappear, then he had two, then three , then they all vanished. I was like woah, that was actually good and I wasn’t expecting that. After finishing the trick, I said “how in the world did you do that?” for a minute there I thought this child had perfected slight of hand or something. After laughing from being able to trick us, he said “Mom, when I told ya’ll to look at that object, I quickly slipped a quarter under each of your legs, then when ya’ll were concentrating so hard on the coin holder trying to catch me, I would slide my hand under your leg grab another quarter .” I looked at him puzzled. How did I miss that?I thought I was paying attention.

That’s when the revelation hit.

A few weeks ago, I felt some sort of scheme was unfolding in my life and I thought I accurately depicted where it was going to come from, so I focused my full attention on that area. Only to find out two weeks later that although my intentions were right, I was still tricked and unprepared. I had literally stopped everything I was doing to really pray and keep my eyes open to this specific area of vulnerability. When I woke up this morning, I realized two weeks went by. I was neglecting the area I was growing in, to protect the area I was vulnerable.

The same look on my face when Nathan tricked me, was similar to the face I woke up this morning and made. How? How did I let the enemy trick me ? I was prayer purposefully, I was seeking an answer and being so watchful ? You see when the enemy showed himself in a distant area of my life that was not surrendered completely, I started trying to control it all over again. Believing if I prayed enough, or focused on it enough, that it would somehow change. You see, prayer works and so does staying focused, but the idea that my timeline or that my actions was going to change it,wasn’t.

You see, this area in my life has been one to break my spirit many times, my heart has crumbled, and I just want to ball up on cry. It’s one of those areas that take complete trust, because you can not change it on your own or in your own power. It’s an area where you have to trust God will work it all out, just like he did with me.

I know one day this will be a testimony in this area, but for now , it’s a place I decided to completely surrender to God. I felt as if I lost something , almost mourning having to let this fight go. Let this be up to God . Let this area go through the process. This is on of those steps that didn’t “feel” good but I have so much relief. It is not mine anymore, it’s not my responsibility, it’s not my project. This is a time where I can finally say that prayer and believing in God’s ability to do what he did for me again,for someone else,is Exactly what is needed right now.

In reality, I was never actually in control . I was never really going to change anything on my own and by my own ways. You see, the way Nathan got me distracted and ultimately tricked me by reverting my attention is the same way the enemy distracted me from my Calling , my message to seemingly “work” on something out of my control. This season is a season where I am meant to “speak up” I am meant to witness to the Goodness of God. Other people can not stop what God has started. My own strength is not needed in this fight, but my willingness to hold on to God’s.

This is not the season to give up and throw in the towel just because I have not seen the victory in the natural . My witness is not trampled by the actions of others, nor should it be hindered.

The thing about an illusion or trick, is that it actually didn’t happen. It is a way to distract to make you think it did. It is a device the enemy uses on God’s children to blind us from the true attack. It is a way for us to focus on the things that are already being worked on by God that is personal to distract us from the furthering of the Kingdom . For example:

The enemy gives you symptoms, to make you focus on a sickness that was already healed by the stripes of Jesus.

The enemy gives you anxiety, to worry about a care that has already been taken on by our Savior.

The enemy gives you depression , to distract you from the joy that is complete in Christ and the deliverance that is already yours.

The enemy gives you self consciousness and intimidation to keep you focused on what you can see then WHO YOU ARE. To distract you from becoming everything God wants you to be for the Kingdom.

The enemy uses guilt from your mistakes to take away the perfect peace and assurance of the Righteousness and forgiveness you already have in Christ.

The enemy also gives you a drive to be religious and completely busy with “God’s” work to distract you from fruitful works and Joy of your salvation .

Most of all the enemy likes to create an illusion that anything that strengthens your relationship with Christ in secret without being seen , is not as effective as being consistent by worldly standards and timelines.

You see brothers and sisters in Christ. the world is not run like the Kingdom. The Kingdom is not built by worldly means and schemes. The kingdom is built on spirit and truth.  The kingdom is not built on accolades and qualifications of this world. It is built on a solid foundation; it is built on the finished work of Jesus. It is built in secret and revealed in Public.  The kingdom is built with LOVE. We are witnesses to the glory and power of the Kingdom. We are lights to a dark world.

With the enemy’s trickery we have been building a Kingdom that “appears” Godly but without power, without signs and absent of Wonders. WE have built a Kingdom of worldly accolade with some hierarchy and religious qualifications.  We have puffed up when we must humble. We have controlled where we should surrender. We have become wise and have now become fools to things of God. Now is the time, Now is the time to realize the trick. Humble ourselves and repent (change our minds) about how Kingdom business is supposed to be ran. Not by human authority but by God.  Then, then we will not be carried by every wind and illusion from the enemy. We will Change the world not by our Power but the power of Christ that is in us.

United we Stand as the Body of Christ

Can you see me ?

As I laid down with my youngest daughter, Amaris, I realized she was peeking out at me with her eyes pretending to be asleep. I too started peeking out my eyes to make her laugh and out of nowhere I was really shocked to realize the difference in view when our eyes are squinted , one eye closed and other eye open. I started experimenting , because that’s what you do when you have four kids and things like this becomes cool. I did this several times , to just really capture what all I was missing through each perspective . To my surprise A LOT.

Seriously , before you continue reading , take a moment . Focus on one area and Squint your eyes , what do you see ? Now open them , what do you see ? Close your left eye , what do you see ? Then close your right eye , what do you see ? Now close your eyes all together ? I can answer this one for you here , you see nothing .

You see , that’s that’s when I realized . That is what is going on right now. We as Children of God have choices. We have a loving Father like that. We can choose to open our eyes and see the whole picture, we can choose to squint, keep one eye open or even close them all together . Even though this is absolutely a choice, even though we are already forgiven and we can make the choice , is it profitable?

I asked the Holy spirit ,What are the different types of people in this scenario?

I started writing and this is what I heard. The person with the squinted eyes is the person that is looking from afar, they are the ones that sees the injustice and when their eyes are squinted they can see what is in front with limitations. They are the ones who think they have both eyes open but fail to see what is above them . They see with both eyes but with vengeance as their first reaction . I was then reminded of when my children argue , they squint there eyes at each other to intimidate and all that does is cause the other child to also squint their eyes and builds up anger.

Then there is the person that sees only with their left eye or right eye, that is the person that can only see half the picture. They may have been raised only one way , they can not see both sides. You see they too have a choice to open their eyes , but they choose not to. You see whether you are looking only out of the left or only looking out of the right, both people are missing the full picture. They see half of what’s above and half of what’s in front, but they don’t see both sides. You see, we can not get a full picture of both sides if we aren’t willing to open both eyes. Some out of ignorance and some out of pride.

Then there are the people who close their eyes all together. They are in darkness, they are so spiritually blind that they only know how to follow others who are blind. You see, these are the people who can not see for themselves. They have loved their life always following blindly and never seeing. They close their eyes and also follow their heart , which is deceitful.

The problem here is . whether you are squinting, closing one eye, or are completely blind, you can not truly see what the FULL picture is in front of you.

Then we have the person who has both eyes fully Open. This person may have seen injustice for a long time and stayed silent. Even though you fully see, the time was not right because even though you could see with two eyes fully, you could not speak with the right heart.

You see, in a time of great injustice. A time where senseless murders and oppression are prevalent , it’s not only important to have both eyes open , but a heart that is in the right place. You must see that sensless acts are done to many people who do not deserve it. We must open our eyes and see not only what is in front of us, but all angles. Above, below and what is beside us. The only way to do that is to make the choice to open your eyes, look around, pause and really see what you are looking at . What is really going on?

Then before we speak, we have to ask ourselves, is what I am about to say going to turn this picture I am seeing darker and harder for me to see, or is what I am about to say going to brighten the picture and bring the matter into true focus.

You see when a soldier is aiming their barrel at the enemy , if their gun is not in focus they will miss their target. If the soldier is unable to see they won’t even know what they are aiming at , their true enemy. If a soldier is shooting without a clear picture of who their enemy is, then they may just shoot an ally on accident.

Brothers and Sisters in Christ. We have an enemy in this time. The same enemy that deceived Eve in the garden . The same enemy that stole everything God so freely gave her by whispering lies into her ear. Her deception also caused the downfall of her husband. Today the enemy is whispering in each person of God and we can either listen to or reject that voice. We have that choice.

The enemy is whispering to you that oppression is only for one type Of child and he did so strategically. We must know our Father’s voice in this time and not be led away like sheep ready for slaughter. I’ve been there and it almost cost me my life.

Remember the root of all that is among us, senseless murder, rape, sex trafficking, premature death, suicide, depression, fear , church hurt and racism, all come from one source the father of lies, of deception, the One who hates HUMANITY all together. He is the thief that comes only to steal, kill , and destroy… He is the Devil, Satan , Lucipher !

With that said, I can not end with a name like that because he does not deserve any more attention and just as quickly as we resist him HE must flee.

See church, We have a Savior who suffered the worst death, a death he did not deserve so that we could be free. We have a Savior who’s grace is sufficient for Such a time as this. He is King of all Kings and the king of darkness does not compare , not even a smidgen to Our Great Savior !

We have had our opinions, we have had our anger, we have had words spoken that only a time of great hate and a time of great anguish can bring about. I’ve been there. But now !

Now , while there is time to be in one mind and one accord, we must come together and fight the enemy together. Pentecost is coming and the significance of one mind and one accord hasn’t been greater than in a time like this. We had a true Passover, Easter and now a TRUE Pentecost at hand .

Church, do not miss out on a great time of revival , do not let the enemy steal what is rightfully yours in this season . BE ANGRY, HATE what is Evil but do not sin. Our God loves us so much that he didn’t want us to even avenge ourselves but to over come evil with GOOD. Venegance is the LORDS but we MUST get out of the way and pray , declare and bind what is not of God with the true weapons on our warfare.

In the time the enemy wants us to fight.

FOrgive

In this time the enemy wants us to kill .

HEAL

In this time the enemy wants us destroy

BUILD

In this time the enemy wants us quiet

SPEAK

What God asks us to do to overcome an army of evil doesn’t always make sense. Trust me , I understand that. But if God commanded Noah to build and Ark when there was no rain ever recorded, if God ask Moses to lead his people to A Red sea that seemed an impossible barrier that would give the enemies the advantage, If God told Joseph to forgive his brothers after all they did to him and feed them, If God sent Jesus to die for our sins when he was innocent so that you and me could be free.

Then I suggest we do it. I beg we do it.

When they did, what did not make sense. An obedient man saved all of mankind, a man with a stutter led the Children of Israel across a sea without one bit of moisture on their feet, a man sold by his own flesh and blood Became the right hand man to Pharaoh and he blessed his entire family through him, and because Of the greatest act of obedience of all time , a man that chose to die without sin , so that all our sins could be forgiven . The greatest hero of all . JESUS! What He did , made no sense. But because of Jesus we live forever.

We must not be the man who was forgiven of much and go out and demand from others who owe us. After that man’s debt that he could not pay was just forgiven.

Let’s do the opposite right now, and see a mighty move of God. Unite in arms Children of GOD Open your eyes see the full picture and examine your hearts. We have lived for this moment, we have anticipated this mighty move of God ! WE must not hand it over to the enemy.

A man of peace was brutally killed George FLoyd, a man who wanted to see God transform lives, like God did his. Let’s honor him the best we can and come together, to push back darkness with our light. For George and for many others. Let’s finish his mission.

The enemy wants us to take revenge in our own hands because scattered and alone fighting each other is what he wants. Even the enemy knows a kingdom divided against itself Can not stand. Let’s divide the kingdom of darkness family. Let’s see good win !

UNITED WE WILL STAND! UNITED WE SPEAK UP IN UNITY ! UNITED WE SPEAK UP FOR THE POOR AND THE OPPRESSED. UNITED WE WILL FIGHT FOR THEIR RIGHTS WITH THE RIGHT WEAPONS AND THE BATTLE PLAN FROM HEAVEN !

This is how we should pray today.

OUR FATHER WHO ARE IN HEAVEN , HALLOWED BE THY NAME

THY KINGDOM COME, THY WILL BE DONE

ON EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN,

GIVE US THIS DAY OUR DAILY BREAD AND FORGIVE US OF OUR TRESPASSES AS WE FORGIVE THOSE WHO TRESPASS AGAINST US

LEAD US NOT INTO TEMPTATION BUT DELIVER US FROM EVIL

FOR THINE IS THE KINGDOM ! THE POWER ! AND THE GLORY FOREVER AND EVER

IN JESUS PRECIOUS NAME, AMEN

I command right now all eyes to be opened and all hearts to be guarded in this time. I cast out any root of bitterness the enemy has planted. I command every evil thought that has taken root to be burned in the name of Jesus.

I declare Children of God , we will not miss out on our promise land. Together, we will see a mighty move of God. WE won’t miss it ❤

I pray that the mighty battle plan of God be brought to all believers during this time, that we listen for his voice so we will see victory to ALL injustice. That every believer know that God is for them and wants his children to come close and be comforted and equipped with the next step. Cry out to our Father, he is waiting. In Jesus name , AMEN

Before you Sleep, smile at me

You toss and turn , snuggle deep

My eyes lock on , you pretend to sleep

You find comfort , the perfect place

My mind is at peace, when I see your face

You open your eyes , I am here

My heart is proud , you want me near

You doze in and out , I could cry

My pride for you , I can’t deny

You look up , you investigate for a while

Then as you drift , I see a smile

That smile is a gift , before you rest

My love for you , I give my best

You drift to sleep, you breathe so still

My mind tries guilt , against my will

You are my baby , you grow so fast

My joy for you , will always last

Now mommy’s turn , I am in and out

My heart so full, I could shout

I close my eyes , lay down my head

Guilt is gone , I give grace instead

I keep real still, so you will not wake

I love being mommy , I also love a little break

Then as I drift off , as still as can be

I hear a whisper ,beloved , will you smile at me?

This poem is inspired by the smiles of my children before they sleep. The joy and love I feel when they take a moment for that one last smile . It reminds me that our Daddy in heaven also loves for us to just be comforted by his presence , to look his way and smile with perfect peace and confidence in Him.

Like a child

“Truly I say to you, unless you will be converted and become like children, you will not enter the Kingdom of Heaven.” Matthew 18:3

You know the days where your kids have seemingly lost their minds and you question your sanity ? You know on those days that one child in particular will try you over and over and just forget all the rules . Well this was the exact scenario a few days ago with my second to youngest daughter Jayden.

If anyone knows Jayden , you know she is my free spirited , soft hearted, and super hilarious child . I am pretty sure broadway or some sort of acting is in her future ok. She is our child that we are able to look at in a certain way and she will stop doing whatever it is that is wrong . But this day in particular just wasn’t happening .

So of course , I lose it . I “tried” to be calm , I “tried” to let it not build up . But yeh, I failed .Honestly ,what she was doing wasn’t horrific, it was just all throughout the day little things that were clearly defiant and just aggravating ( for lack of better words).Of course I let guilt set in and I came to her and assured her that getting correction was not wrong; however , the way I corrected was.

I probably looked like a toddler throwing a tantrum honestly haha ( it’s funny now, but I felt horrible). So we had our talk and everything calmed down probably because we assured each other that everything was settled.

I know it sounds bad , but I was like , yeh I feel bad how I reacted , but at least now she’s listening ( don’t hate me , I am human too) . As soon as that thought crossed my mind , Jayden asked me “ mom, can I have some ice cream and then go to the trail to ride scooters. “

If y’all could see my face . I thought to myself , (this is going to sound bad) , but I thought …. “did she really just ask for dessert annnnnd going to a trail to ride her scooter when we finally just had some peace between each other . “ Thank God I kept that thought to myself , even though my face may have talked for me . If I would have spoken too quickly I would have missed what the Holy Spirit was showing me in that moment .

You see , even though we said sorry and made things right and I DID forgive her , I was still shocked that she just so openly asked for not one but two things. It was already getting late , I’m already exhausted and it was getting to the point of settling down , I mean completely inopportune timing . I didn’t even have time to really just come to terms with my own attitude and forgive myself fully and apparently not fully forgetting what she had done ( I’m not God).

Heck, I was still analyzing what part of her childhood memories I messed up or the guilt of possibly breaking her spirit haha. ( only funny now).

How could my child even feel comfortable coming to me after a day full of agitation.

That’s when the revelation hit .

Many times in life I would hide my needs , wants, desires, even failures from God because let’s face it , I wasn’t where I thought I should be . People would say , “ come as you are” and when I did I was the object of judgement and gossip. Like, listen I didn’t choose my superpower at the time to be crazy, depressed, and needy ok. I brought my demons and the people fled . So , I thought if church people who aren’t perfect like God are ashamed of me , how much more will My perfect Father be .

Ouch , yeh I was super wrong and my belief system was influenced by a lot of outward and religious spirits ( including me , so cringe).

What the Holy Spirit was showing me through Jayden was boldness , faith in her mother’s love and ability to meet her demands despite her outward actions . You see , God doesn’t want us to come boldly to the throne room of Grace because we are perfect and never mess up on our own . He wants for us to come boldly and have confidence in his grace and in his position as our Abba ( daddy) in heaven , so that he can meet the needs. We come boldly because he is well pleased with Jesus and he sees Jesus , so whew. Whether it be healing, financial, spiritual, unanswered questions , behavior, whatever it is we need to come boldly.

See unlike God I have limitations in my flesh , I am unable to forget when my daughter just sinned so sometimes it lingers , Even though I want to give her all she asks , sometimes that something extra is conditional.

With God we are saved by grace , nothing we did, it is a gift. He is not shocked or surprised when we come to him after acting foolish , asking bold requests . He is constant in our relationship, he is forgiving , he wipes the slate clean constantly . You see he isn’t limited in his sight by our flesh , because it’s been covered in Jesus blood . He sees Jesus .

So rest easy friends and go boldly to the throne room of grace fully forgiven asking and making requests know to our Father.

He isn’t going to look at you like I did my daughter shocked at how could so many requests be made after a day of aggravation. No, he is pleased that we trust and believe that he made a way for us to be this close. The good news is we don’t have to be disntant from God’s power like before Jesus sacrificed his life and torn the veil. Now we are seated near at his right hand basking in his presence , not hindered by our behavior . We are only hindered by our unbelief of Jesus sacrifice and unbelief of who we are in Him.

I pray today that you come boldly to our Father and make all requests known, tell him where you are lacking in any area. Draw closer to Him and bask in his presence . Pray for the Holy Spirit to lead you to the throne room of grace and his powerful presence . Then you will see that despite your behavior or outward issues , your Daddy is waiting for you to come to him so he can show you a way out .

I pray that you no longer depend on your own ability to be righteous or holy but, Jesus’ ability to be righteous and Holy. I pray that you see yourself the way God does and when you accept that love , you will start seeing others in that way as well. In Jesus name , amen

Will we have weak days , will we have days where we don’t “feel” spiritual … yes, but even though we are not constant , God is . His promises are yes and amen, unconditionally and with all sincerity .

There is not a better confidant, friend,and helper than the spirit of God . Only he can give perfect direction and action plans . So come boldly brothers and sisters, he’s waiting with excitement .

So lord , I choose to come To you as my child comes to me . Boldly and knowing that she is forgiven. Knowing I want what is best for her and want to see her succeed . Knowing I want to help her solve her issues . Knowing I want to see her well and pursuing the purpose she was made for . Knowing despite her mistakes I will help every way I can.

Remember ….

We are not Perfect alone, so let’s rest and rely on the ONE who is . God ❤️ …People , even me , can’t give you perfect relationship. Only HIM .

Blessings and favor over each of you amen !

This is for you too …

So I felt led to a different kind of post today… so I pray the Holy spirit opens your minds and reveals to you truth that points straight to how amazing and wonderful Jesus is.

When you fall from Grace , you are no longer believing that you are saved by faith through Jesus, But of yourselves. You condemn yourself . You put heavy burdens, loads, and morality on yourself. When in reality, our might and strength will never be enough.

See Jesus.. “Yeshua” literally means Salvation. So when we are putting on the mind of Christ we are putting on the helmet of Yeshua . Let’s now see why this is soooooo important to get to first, when we come to know the Lord. When a Roman soldier puts on armor they use a helmet to protect their brain. According to the mayoclinic.com , “The brain is an amazing three-pound organ that controls all functions of the body, interprets information from the outside world, and embodies the essence of the mind and soul. … The brain controls our thoughts, memory and speech, movement of the arms and legs, and the function of many organs within our body.” ( More in depth writing is coming on this later on, I am just skimming the surface on this revelation the Holy spirit gave to me) So Family, the helmet of salvation in the armor of God is literally the helmet of Yeshua. All these functions are so , so important to our daily lives and destiny. It effects how we pray, what we pray , how we approach God, who we believe God to be… I mean. I could go on and on. But that’s on another blog. Now you see why this is so important?

You know when you start studying the Word of God with your mind of Christ on , oh how the story changes. You are no longer scared to read the bible or just waiting for more Do’s and don’ts. It’s no longer a book where you go see what others are doing wrong or how self righteous you are.Oh no, it becomes one of the greatest mysteries revealed to you in such an amazing way because you are being led by the spirit. You aren’t reading a story that the wisest or most knowledgeable could ever truly understand on their own , it’s like your own secret message leading to the Treasures of heaven . It is not understood with human intellect but meticulously revealed in many different ways in many different seasons . IT is discerned with a spirit that puts even the first the same as the last, the rich and the poor and even the slowest of learners and fastest of learners on the same playing field. You feel like you are going down a never ending hunt sometimes, but a life changing one. You get one train of thought and it leads to another and it becomes an all out investigation . You know one of those investigations you do after watching a court case and just need evidence for some sort of closure. You know that evidence you look for when you search your whole heart mind and strength until late hours of the night clicking article after article. Just to know the truth .  The cool thing about Having the Holy spirit as a friend and God as a good good father who can never lie, you will always, I mean always find what you are seeking at the right time . You are not left confused and dissatisfied, its always a search that ends in peace or action for the next step. It’s like endless awe and wonder. Now there is times, where you feel kind of bored and think, ummm I know this scripture. Only for a revelation of the meaning to truly hit a week later, who knows, maybe while vacuuming the floor.

I wanted to share this because as I reveal what is  revealed to me through revelation , I want you to realize that I am a homemaker who is beloved by God not through my actions but because of Jesus’ finished work on the cross. I mean I am pretty low on the social totem poll to the world , lets face it, haha . I mean , but really guys a homemaker given wisdom supernaturally used by a powerful God that doesn’t need me, but chooses to use me , to spread the Good Good news. So it’s not of myself or human wisdom. I just want to see lives transformed and people complete in Him. I just want everything that comes out of my mouth or typed through my fingers on a keyboard to point to Jesus. I honestly go back and read what is written and I am like, who wrote that? I can’t humanly explain how I come to these conclusions or revelations on my own, because I don’t. It is always a scripture or bible story that didn’t make sense at the time and BAM it hits. Sometimes it’s just deeper meaning to something I didn’t previously know fully. Not anything biblically new , but like in depth truth of God’s written word, that’s new to me. My prayer is that through sharing my revelations, it will spark your spirit to seek revelation for yourselves as well. It is the most satisfying and awe inspiring experience. To know that God will use all means to help me understand, and to reveal truths to me that I need, exactly when I need it, mostly through my children.

The only thing I can give advice about when it comes to revelations is truly just taking a moment to be a fly on the wall so to speak throughout your day. To be present but yet taken back and just observe. Oh, just take a moment from the chaos and distraction and just look and see what can only be seen , when you truly look. To pray and ask for revelation is a huge part for sure also. Sometimes, The silly smiles of my children, the tiny mannerisms , and even just the conversation that they have with each other reveals God’s truths. Sometimes it’s a wake up call when I hear my children being unkind to each other. Especially when I hear things I know is me or my husband. I used to get so down and condemn myself, but now I just say Holy spirit lead me to a better way. As you lead me , they will follow. The pressure of trying to figure it all out isn’t on me alone, I can make the choices but only through knowing I am loved, can I choose a more loving approach. Knowing you are loved eases anxieties and it results in less agitation. Our Abba wants us to succeed in our marriages, in our parenting, and all relationships that we are meant to be a part of. Sweet friend, grace is there to take the burden off you , you can get up again , you can try again, you can keep moving forward without condemnation. You can come boldy come to the Father asking all sorts of questions and even talking about things you struggle with , and asking advice.

Yeh you may need to ask your kids for forgiveness or your spouse, but you can’t expect to learn without mistakes. But the Good news is , your mistakes don’t stack against you , it’s an endless washing of the blood of the lamb over you every single day. Rest easy do not be overcome with anxiety and thoughts of your mistakes, you are loved , you are holy , you are righteous and you are moving forward. Do not give up.

When we Are saved we are legit going through a brain transplant. Putting away the former things, like literally born again. If you are a newborn you do not have memories, so literally we must do away with all past things ,a new slate. Allow the Holy Spirit to fill your mind with the thoughts of Jesus. Those thoughts about whatever is kind what ever is good, How faithful our heavenly father is, being kingdom minded and knowing we are righteous as he is righteous because of the finished work of the cross. Then keeping our eyes on Jesus and being in awe will result in changed behavior supernaturally. Do we make a choice , yes.. However, when we keep our eyes on Jesus , we walk in the spirit and love, then every other commandment is fulfilled. Like, Literally our Father set us up to succeed. We just have to put away our fleshly desire to have our hand in places that aren’t ours to mess with so we can take some sort of credit. We must walk by faith. Remind yourself, we are without spot or blemish in the eyes of the father. Yes, the world and even you remember when you messed up before and when you presently mess up . But rest easy, God does not. Have you ever found yourself digging a deeper hole of sin and depression when you constantly think about what you do wrong and that you can never do right.

Try this, know that you are so loved by God , ask him yourself to reveal to you how much you are loved. Open your bible through the eyes of grace and let the forgiveness and love pour all over you. Watch sin and addiction break off your life, Be free child of God ! Do not be bonded by the yolk of slavery. We are now sons and daughters to the most high God.

I am reminded of the Prodigal son, I ask that you take a moment to read Luke 15:11–32 and ask the Holy spirit to reveal to you what is true about how Our daddy delights in us when we come back to him.

Then as you are reminded who you are in Christ, keep asking questions , keep seeking , I promise no other relationship in your life will compare. Don’t get me wrong I love my family , ya’ll know this, but there isn’t a person or thing on this earth that can ever sustain or fulfill the deep places like Jesus. This is not of myself or that I am just this super wise or bold person on my own. Any courage or wisdom, or knowledge of the spirit is a gift from the spirit. So yeh, No boasting , no accolade or achievement on my part. My need for something real , whether that makes me weak or not, was more important than staying empty. I heard someone say, oh christians just are too weak to handle this world, so they need a God to lean on. Well, guilty, I am weak , but he is strong. I can’t do this life or even one ounce of my past without the saving grace , acceptance and Love of the Father. I am not ashamed that I need Jesus to walk in this life and neither should you.

I pray for bondage to be broken , anyone held back from their destiny to start seeking who they are in Christ, I pray for those who are feeling the heaviness of this life to be renewed in Jesus name. I pray for children of God to use your helper the holy spirit, to let him lead you . If Jesus could trust the Holy spirit to raise him from the dead, I can trust him too. I love ya’ll ! My heart just wants for you all to find this freedom , to walk in your spiritual gifts, to walk in health and full abundant life. To seek our Father’s face without being scared or condemned. God loves you so very much. Remember, As Jesus is so are we!

A visual that the Holy spirit showed me a few days ago , really brought peace to my spirit. It was me sitting next to my Abba on the right hand of the throne and anytime evil was coming against me, I rested in Victory with my Father and he sent an angel out without a flinch before it could reach me. I had this assurance that I am so loved, I am protected, I am victorious because of My father. I pray this too helps you see just how close and How intimate of a relationship God wants with you too.

Peace and many blessings! In Jesus Name , amen !

You make me Confident

     One morning Nathan came into the room and said,” Mom, I have not been able to use the video editor for a long time, can I pleeeease use it.” I said “well, where’s my laptop?”  ( at that point I forgot Michael fixed Nathan’s computer) and he said, “it’s also on my computer” Before I could say yes, he said, “no, I want to use your laptop so I know you are watching me , because when you do I feel more confident.” My heart melted and this overwhelming heaviness filled my chest, like that, must catch my breath because it just overwhelmed me with  such JOY. I immediately thought, “WOW, even though lately he feels as if we have been unfair as parents, and has truly been verbal about it, he still desires for me to watch him do what he truly loves. He finds confidence, oh that word I have lacked all my life, he grows confident when I am watching him.

     That means so much to me because as a parent there are times where you just do not feel like you are getting anything right. As my children grow, my now not so little Nathan is our first. You know the oldest, the one we transition to every new stage of life with first. The one who lives up to the meaning of his name, leader. I think of how sometimes when we take lead in any area of our life, it can seem scary. It does not help that sometimes in life, you do not really realize mistakes until you have already made them, especially in parenting. Despite all the times of when I doubt myself, this one moment of just trust from my son, this longing for my presence, shut up all the voices in my head. Little did he know that he too made me confident.

     You know in our world right now, it feels as if you can only truly get your point across, be seen for your talents or even mean anything until the product is finished. Oh, the pressure this society gives on performance. Nathan taught me that the process can be just as beautiful and helpful as the finished product.

     I really am just blown away that my child has found something I have lacked my whole life, and that is the confidence to mess up and mess up in front others , knowing that I won’t always get it perfect and that it’s ok. Gosh, I learn so much from these beautiful babies and I can never describe the gratitude. Do we have hard days and just nights where I legit come to the end of myself? Those nights I just want to ball up and ask why God would choose me to be the mother of these amazing children. It’s in those moments, where his grace falls over me and reminds me, that he will guide every step, that as much as I love my children, he loves them more.

                                                  That is when the revelation hit.

    This is how confident we should feel when we are walking into the calling God has given us. You know that specific area he has gifted you for his glory. It may not be your job right now, because let us face it, how on earth will this gift supply what we need right now? Your gift will make room for you and He will provide.The lord showed me through my child that all I need is to stay in his presence, be confident in his presence and want him to watch every step of the way. To be confident that he is rooting us on and has eyes of grace for any missteps. To know as surely as I want for my child to succeed, our Abba wants us to succeed as well. He set us up for victory, not a failure. He gently whispers I am for you; I am for you; you have everything you need in me.

    Through the eyes of Grace, we see that he wants to watch, lead, guide, calm us when we get frustrated because we cannot figure it out on our own. Oh, but when you allow his presence to be there, you will not mess everything up, just look up and he will redirect you to the solution.

      You see, when Nathan is on the laptop editing, he always starts off so excited! He is so glad I allowed him to work on his talent for editing videos. Oh, when he starts, he is just so gung-ho! He Is just trying new things, clicking on everything, and just ahh zealous. He quickly looks,” mom, mom, Look, LOOK, watch me.” As time goes by, he becomes frustrated, he gets to a point where he faces an obstacle, because there is a new skill or lesson to be learned. In this moment, when an obstacle arises , if he was in any way scared of judgment, then this would be a time he would give up. Instead he knows that I want him to succeed, not suffer harshly. He knows that I want him to find out the solution.

    He then asks me quickly, “mom, where do I find the answer to this?” I do not always give an outright answer to my children, But I always provide a way for them to find it.  All you must do is ask knowing that I want the best for you, so be confident. All he must do is realize I am just watching in complete love and just waiting for him to turn to me with every question. I have been there, you start something, and along the way there is more learning to do. I can look at him with eyes of Grace because there is no mess up or wrong turn that he can take, that will lead me to judge him , but to guide him and comfort him knowing I am for him.

    The foundation is necessary, the basic understanding is necessary, the tasks that require help is necessary in this life. Coming to the end of ourselves is necessary and oh so beautiful when the Father’s presence brings you confidence and not condemnation and guilt.

      Oh the joy our Abba (Daddy) must feel when we truly understand how much he is for us. How much we see ourselves as beloved when we put on our mind of Christ. You see when I think of what would Jesus mind and thoughts  consist of , I can go to scripture and see that he knows he is the beloved who his father is well pleased, when Lazarus died he already knew his Father already gave him everything he asked for ( but it was for us, that he spoke), you see he knows where he is placed at, at the right hand of the father , fully equipped for everything the Father sends him to do. He is confident that any direction the Father sends him, that he will know the way has already been perfectly orchestrated.

     So believers, to all the beloveds whom he is well pleased, ask your Heavenly Father to watch you, so you will be confident. When you are walking in life, do not wait, ask freely and he will provide the solution. Oh! enter the throne room of his GRACE, confident that he is wanting to see you succeed. Oh, how righteous we are by faith. Even better If you believe you lack faith, that too is not of your own ability. The scripture says that Jesus is the Author and finisher of our faith. Oh that too, Grace and faith has already been finished at the cross. So put on that mind of Christ and rest in the finished work of your faith. Fruitful works will follow without the yolk of slavery. It is a by product of our understanding of the Father’s love. Believe in his love, grace and goodness and every addiction, bad habit, bad fruit will supernaturally fall way. In our Father, listen, in our Father we are complete because of Jesus.

    Put away the works in vain, oh the Martha’s in this time, rest like Mary and what you receive can never be taken.

    Oh my sweet family in Christ, I have GOOD NEWS, Oh the greatest News of all. We do not need to feel anxious or pressured when we ask our Daddy to be a part of our lives. You are not the author and finisher of your faith, you are not the one with the power of your own might to supernaturally transform. When you come to the father, as an infant drink of the milk, get to know your Daddy and he will teach you who you are. Would you send an infant out to work immediately, oh but an infant doesn’t even know what the works are, step back and let the Holy spirit work Believers. Let all works be fruitful by the Holy Spirit. Let the infant know that  in order for the works to have power it is not of themselves. Let those righteous deeds be done with JOY and hope. Put away the grumbling and complaining. They need to know they are so loved, righteous and complete in Christ. Then the byproduct of His love and acceptance is fruitful works.  Rest easy and know that God is God. Be free my sisters and brothers in Christ, let the Holy spirit lead and great revival will come.  He Is the father full of UNMERITED favor and grace, the law already brought us to the end of ourselves our inability to be righteous on our own, and oh How sweet is it that Jesus came to fulfill it because on our own it is impossible. Oh that we may have a renewed relationship with our Heavenly Father. If that alone was not enough, Our Daddy loves us so much , he sent a helper ( the Holy Spirit) to gently remind us, to comfort us , to lead us down the roads that are the best for us, to give us power our friend who is gentle and oh so mighty. The one who whispers and brings down a might rushing wind. The one who whispers you are loved and Brings Our savor back from the dead. You see our daddy sent us the best equipment to see us succeed , be transformed by the renewing of your minds, be filled with the spirit all you have to do is ask and be still in him and listen for the steps, the direction . Go into the secret place and let him Guide you.

    For those who do not know have a personal relationship with Jesus,  it’s ok that this will sound like straight foolishness. But if you to want to experience a love like this and walk into your destiny, in scripture we are told to repent, ( turn way/ change our minds) about sin , Believe in the son Jesus and this finished work at the cross and be saved. Then you will be filled with your helper the holy spirit to guide. Then as an infant, immediately Drink of the spiritual milk of his word, just like a baby and rest on the Father’s chest for that skin to skin contact and let him love you and carry you like an infant and speak to you from his word. If you find yourself not understanding, ask for wisdom and it will be given. Put off all the former things you perceived to know about the Lord and who YOU used to be and let our Father reveal himself and show you for himself who He and who you are now. From there my friend, you will go through stages of growth and understanding, but never forget that Just as quickly as my son could turn around ask for help and direction or even to show me praise, Our father will be there for you to.

     Come, whether saved or unsaved. Put off the Former things, your Daddy wants to see you succeed. So, invite him, so you too…

Can be Confident.

John 3:16

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

“and the is Salvation in no one else; for there is no other name under heaven that has been given among men by which we must be saved .” Acts 4:12

he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit” Titus 3:5

 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 
not by works, so that no one can boast.” Ephesians 2:8-9
 
 
 

At the Home of Martha and Mary

38 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”

41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one.[a] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” luke 10:38-42

 

John 1:14-17 (AMP) And the Word (Christ) became flesh, and lived among us; and we [actually] saw His glory, glory as belongs to the [One and] only begotten Son of the Father, [the Son who is truly unique, the only One of His kind, who is] full of grace and truth (absolutely free of deception). John testified [repeatedly] about Him and has cried out [testifying officially for the record, with validity and relevance], “This was He of whom I said, ‘He who comes after me has a higher rank than I and has priority over me, for He existed before me.’” For out of His fullness [the superabundance of His grace and truth] we have all received grace upon grace [spiritual blessing upon spiritual blessing, favor upon favor, and gift heaped upon gift]. For the Law was given through Moses, but grace [the unearned, undeserved favor of God] and truth came through Jesus Christ.

Romans 5:15-17 But the free gift is not like the offense. For if by the one man’s offense many died, much more the grace of God and the gift by the grace of the one Man, Jesus Christ, abounded to many. And the gift is not like that which came through the one who sinned. For the judgment which came from one offense resulted in condemnation, but the free gift which came from many offenses resulted in justification. For if by the one man’s offense death reigned through the one, much more those who receive abundance of grace and of the gift of righteousness will reign in life through the One, Jesus Christ.

Romans 6:14-16 For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace. What then? Shall we sin because we are not under law but under grace? Certainly not! Do you not know that to whom you present yourselves slaves to obey, you are that one’s slaves whom you obey, whether of sin leading to death, or of obedience leading to righteousness?

Come back into his Grace

Galatians 5:4 You have become estranged from Christ, you who attempt to be justified by law; you have fallen from grace.

What Does James 2:26 Mean by “Faith without Works is Dead?”

“In James chapter 2, James writes that “as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.” Here James affirms that deeds (or actions) are the byproduct of a living faith. Works do not justify us or make us righteous before God, nor are they the means to salvation. Rather, our deeds are the fruit that grows from one who is obedient to God’s commands and transformed by His grace.” Crosswalk.com Joel Ryan
 
 
 
 
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Together we will be confident in Christ, In Jesus Name , Amen

0% chance

Yesterday was a cool and windy day. We saw a bit of snow flurries and was of course excited! (even though it was a small deal to people around here who are used to it, it was a big deal to us ) But here’s the thing .

Every news station station forecasted a 0%chance of snow . It wasn’t a 20% or 30% chance . It was flat out 0%. When I see that number , it means absolutely no chance . Literally NO chance . No expectation! So even flurries is more than 0% chance . Right ?

Ok, I think I got that point across . So now …

Fast forward to later that night. I was on the phone with my parents , laying on the couch with my husband and our youngest child , when suddenly I heard this loud wind ! 💨 Not only did I hear this wind , it also pierced through the drafty window sending a chill down my leg . I thought to myself , oh it’s been windy all day , just more of the same. You know , be “logical”, even though deep deep down I am like , what if it’s snow? Well, A few seconds later I heard small pitter patter on the window . Then I thought ,oh my gosh maybe it IS snow foreal! Then I said to myself no, it’s just leaves and continued on with the conversation with my parents on the phone.

After all 0% means no chance.

Well , then again I felt another blast of air and said , hold on let me check outside . I finally decided to look out the window . My eyes got wide and jaw dropped ! IT’S SNOWING ! It’s SNOWING ! It wasn’t only snowing , It was FIERCELY snowing and accumulating .

I immediately said mom and dad , it’s snowing! You know since they didn’t hear me scream it already .I honestly forgot the conversation we were having and looked over to my husband said “Michael ! look it’s snowing .”

Unfortunately for them .It didn’t stop there .

I opened the blinds and kept telling michael “look , look! ” I then told my parents that I was switching to video chat, so they could see why I was so excited. Oh the snow fell so beautifully as if it were dancing around like glitter in front of the porch light . It caught my full attention.

You see , Everything I was distracted by, was put on hold , I was in such awe ( I love snow) and I kept saying “look look look ! “

That’s when the revelation hit ….

I thought of how many times in my life have I hoped for something , prayed for something , and constantly watched for it, only to become logical by the fear of sounding ridiculous. How many times have I been so hopeful only to be told there is NO chance ? How many times have I missed the signs of favorable conditions and the beautiful reminders of what was promised to me ( like those beautiful flurries throughout the day), only to be distracted by something else going on .How many times did I lose excitement and hope because people around me wasn’t excited.

Honestly too many times to count .

Today I was reminded …How this world judges whether or not something is possible , is by things we can see . Today I was reminded… that being told that I am not the right fit by the world’s standards , doesn’t mean that I am not the perfect fit for God’s assignment.

To the world the wayward son or daughter has a 0% chance of being trusted or used in this society.

To the world , the stay at home mom doesn’t have enough connections or intellect to think for herself or let alone be something bigger than herself.

To the world, a man who has consistently made poor decisions , will never be respectable or trustworthy .

To the world , the homeless drug addict , will never be anything more than one step away from a relapse .

To the world, the color of your skin ,has some sort of measurement of how trustworthy or capable you are .

To the world , the church member who doesn’t know the lingo , who doesn’t have a clique or family ties , will never make it anywhere in the church ministry.

Oh but God has shown time and time again, he doesn’t choose by world’s standards or opinions . He takes the world’s 0% chances and turns them into a mighty wind , a storm that rushes in and grabs the attention of everyone who didn’t believe.

It’s isn’t about what is forecasted by worldly gauges or assessments . It is about the unseen favorable conditions, and it has nothing to do with the outside , it is about what only He sees on the inside .

I heard recently , that no one understands what is happening when it’s happening.

I don’t understand everything right now, I don’t know how everything will turn out , but I do know this . My 0% chance and your 0% chance ,with Christ, has endless possibility .

Don’t give up hope , don’t miss out on the tiny reminders , don’t let distractions and blinders keep you from seeing everything you prayed for and everything God has called you to do unfolding right before your eyes .

This is the season of putting away your distractions, the world’s expectations, and faulty gauges. This is the season where your strongholds become weak ! This is the season of things happening that YOU don’t even see happening. This is the season that you finally stop doubting in this area and you will peek out of those blinds and see this mighty storm bringing what you believed could be true . Oh this season you will be in awe , you will shout look , look, look … look what the lord has done !

This season I have decided ….

I won’t take my chances , I’ll take my promise!

How could he ?

We all have that family member or friend that likes to come to your home , examine every inch of it, and start “calling out” small areas that are not in order. Sometimes they even go as far as telling you how to rearrange your home like “they would.” Then later you find yourself visiting the very same person, only to find that their home is in complete chaos. I immediately think …. “ wait, I was so embarrassed by a few simple things that needed touching up In my home that was called out by this person …. only to find out that their house is looking like this behind that beautifully decorated door.

When I started writing this, I was reminded of a quick revelation I jotted down weeks ago about my children in this very area. I decided not to post it because a similar revelation was posted by someone else . So I thought , ok, no need, so I stopped writing it . At 5 am I woke up and yeh , I couldn’t sleep until I finished what I initially started writing. Turns out the message is different . So it’s needed lol … ok back to the story.

Autumn is our child that delights in doing the right thing. She absolutely loves order, rules, and structure. She loves the straight and narrow. She knows how to let loose and be fun and she will help ANYONE In need ,but she lacks patience with anyone that is not the same way as her.

With that being said . One day Autumn walked by Nathan’s room , then literally out of nowhere , she announces on the echo dot, “Nathan Bradley Stripling, your bed is not made and your toys are not put up .” Nathan said “well close the door , it’s not hurting you .” She then announced again , “ I’m telling mom to go look at your room because it’s bothering me and I can’t stand how you are ok with this mess.”

I decided to intervene , but this time I felt prompted to go get Autumn and bring her to her OWN room. I said Autumn , “why are you so upset about Nathan’s room ? “ she said ,”mom, I had to get up this morning and clean up my room before I started the day, why doesn’t he ? I just don’t see how he can live with his room like that? I don’t see how you aren’t telling him to clean up?”

Or Better yet, explain to Nathan, why it’s important to keep his room clean . For example , if an emergency happens or if he is trying to run around , he can trip and fall if all that mess is on the floor . It’s best to maintain your room daily so that you won’t trip later .” She said “exactly mom!”

I said Autumn , “when I came to get you I felt prompted to come to your room, and not his.” I know you like things in order , but, if you are that concerned , why don’t you gently correct Nathan and then offer help to clean it up.

That’s when the revelation began ….

I then realized from past experience, that when she is so deeply concerned about Nathan , more than normal , there is definitely something deeper going on. So I asked ,” Autumn , what is going on with you. “ she said “mom, nothing, I just want Nathan to do what’s right because I am.”

I then said Autumn ,” let’s inspect your room the way you inspected Nathan’s” she said “ ok, fine.” I walked around and everything looked great. Her toys were in order , her bed was made , her dresser was dusted . She was standing their looking so proud . Then, came the closet . As I opened the door , I could see she immediately remembered that she stuffed everything she didn’t feel like dealing with as she cleaned up her room that morning .

I said “Autumn, why are you telling on Nathan, when your closet looks like this . Did you think I wouldn’t see it . She said “no, mom I forgot.” I told her “ you forgot about your mess in your closet , because you walked by Nathan’s room and got so caught up in what he wasn’t doing right, that you were blinded from seeing your own mess . Isn’t it more dangerous to come into a room you think is clean and trust that it’s ok, only to open the closet and be hit with all this mess piled up.”

She looked at me and said “ mom, I am sorry , can you please help me so I don’t get hurt by this stuff falling down .” I said , “ yes , and then afterwards we are going to help Nathan . Now that you have been humbled by the mess that you needed help cleaning up, you will no longer be concerned with being right or that you did more than him, now you are concerned with his overall safety and his ability to walk without stumbling . “

See correction is great , It doesn’t always feel great, but it’s so appreciated when it’s done in love and with a humble heart. I truly believe it’s not what you say , it’s not even always how you say it … it’s why .

Are you correcting because you are in so much chaos yourself , that focusing on someone else’s house is just easier to live with than facing your own disorder ? Are you correcting because you have gotten so good at decorating that door ,that you yourself have forgotten or even ignored the mess that is behind it?

I have done all of the above . Sometimes without even realizing that’s why I was doing it. One verse that changed my walk with God from religious to relationship , was this very verse .

““Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?”

Matthew 7:3

Ouch ! Yes ouch ! Not only does it hurt imagining a plank in your eye , but to realize you have been walking around with a plank so big ,that you have become blind and now your eye is becoming infected , is excruciating.

I remember the time in my life when I really started allowing God to expose and work on my heart.

It got UGLY ! but just as quickly as Autumn got help by me , Jesus said I am here to help you clean this up.

Then your concern about the dust in the other person’s eye will be dealt with properly .

See , now that you have two healthy eyes , you can use tweezers to carefully help them remove the dust that they are unable to see themself. Without damage !

See , we all need daily maintenance or self evaluation. Tackling our mess with the help of Jesus is absolutely necessary . Correction in love with the right intentions is so beneficial.

So today I choose to be so concerned with Jesus helping me clean my mess, that I will be in the right position to help someone else .

I will choose today to take a good look at what’s in my closet . In the process , humility will immediately set in and when I do correct someone , it will be received the right way .

Today I ask you, are you more concerned with everyone else doing right because you know what’s right and have done it? Or are you concerned with everyone doing right with a haughty heart and a messy closet ?

Either way Jesus is the best organizer and mess cleaner ! As soon as you search for the mess and find it, he’s over there like Mr. clean , ready for you to ask for help to clean it up !

If you realize that this is you, just pause,ask God to search your heart and your whole House .

What are you forgetting about in your closet because you happened to walk by and get fixated on someone else’s dirty room ?

We have all done this ! So you are not alone .This is so crucial in our spiritual health and the lives around you.

The real question … How could I ?

Blessings !

Nathan and Autumn working together. When they are in sync , they achieve amazing things !

“Rebuilder”… I am willing to be well.

If someone asked if they could tear down your house right now , would you let them ? No! right ?


But ….


What if they asked if they could tear down your house and promise to rebuild a brand new one ! For Free!!!

I can’t speak for Anyone else, but I would run, jump ,skip, and hop to the opportunity.

See, we know our homes better than anyone. We see the things we need to fix everyday, but the task seems so daunting. Don’t get me wrong , I love a good DIY ! I love a good renovation show ;however, I lack the skill to know how . So for a builder to come in and offer to tear it down ,then completely rebuild it, would have me running straight across town to purchase a sledgehammer and start DEMO Day. ( as Chip Gaines would say.)

Well… you would think so … right ?

In the process of tearing down the home, memories start to flood your mind . You start doubting how can all of this be torn down and built into something brand new. .

What if I don’t know what I want the new one to look like ?

What if In the process of tearing down my home I harm other homes around me ?

What if I don’t know how to live in a home that is brand new , what if I don’t like change and even though this home is hurting me and my family it’s all I have known.

Change is scary ! What if this new house can’t be built ?

What if I don’t know how to live in a new house ?

What if the debris hits an innocent bystander ?

I am scared to have a brand new home , I will feel like I can’t touch anything or that every mistake is magnified, because now everything is new.

But you see my old house already does that. When the wind blows shingles blow off and hits my neighbors . When the rain comes it leaks through the roof and onto my family.

When the cold comes warmth escapes through the huge cracks in the foundation.

What do I have to lose? A broken, leaky, house on a foundation is bound to collapse …. What do I have to lose? The constant reminder everyday that this and that needs to be fixed . What do I have to lose ? A hefty debt that I will no longer owe because I am offered this gift completely free .

With this arrangement I will no longer be paying for the old house and it’s problems to be fixed . I will remember the old house and what problems needed to be fixed but I am no longer living there.

Of course the new house will have things broken and torn along the way , but now you no longer have to worry because the builder also comes with 100% free maintenance . Here’s the catch out of all this .

All you have to do is ASK !

But In order to ask you must believe , because why ask for something you don’t believe will happen ?

See with God we are promised that if we die to our old selves, let our old houses tear down ,He will build us a new home . We don’t need to know what it will look like, or even the interior .. leave that up to him ( the builder) . Not only will He build a strong foundation , fill it with beautiful things, but as the inside and the framing is being done , you will see the outside start coming together . You also do not need to worry because if someone messes up your house or you mess up your house you have 24 hour maintenance .

Our job is not to build, fix , or even inspect the home . Our job is to ask for the inspection,Acknowledge the repairs, then ask for the builder to come repair them ! We must believe he will come, even if we made the damage and choose to follow the plan perfectly paved for us. This is so important because we don’t know the plans the builder has , so how will we know where to start ?

Then we continue to read the manual and ask for an explanation of the instructions to avoid these damages in the future .

Most importantly. We must not let the house start looking like your old house . Because of a lack of maintenance and because you feel like you have too many repairs too frequently . God is the maintenance man and the builder ! His warranty has only one catch ! You must ask and believe he can do it and take the steps to avoid damage. His maintenance is available at all times and there is no limit to how many times he will come repair the damage!

My friends , don’t be afraid of leaving the old home ( your old self) that caused you hurt , pain , instability, and a foundation that was one storm away from collapsing .

I understand being excited about your future with God , but also not knowing how to accept a gift freely. I understand being weighed down by all the building and repairs being done , that you want to end the deal and just stay in the comfort of your broken home.

You see , I have been riddled with anxiety, fear, and depression from a very young age. It wasn’t until I met the lord that I realized I am not really sure I ever really had peace. When I received peace , it was foreign and honestly I was a bit apprehensive . For anyone who meets Jesus after only knowing being sick , really understands that , yeh, health sounds amazing … but do I even want to be healthy? How scary is it that I have managed my sickness all these years by helping others to feel alive and dosing myself with half of the medication Jesus offers .

Like half sick 😩 ….

There is a story in the Bible about a man who was unable to walk for 38 years and Jesus asked if he wanted to get well ! When I heard the story , I did NOT think .. wow , why did God have to ask him if he wants to be well ?

No, I sat there bawling my eyes out because I truly believe God was asking me the same. I understood why the man had to be asked .

Of course I want peace , of course I want healing . But , I have never had it before …. I’m not sure I can live without anxiety and depression it became my identity since I was a child . I don’t even know what it feels like . Peace used to be a scary word , because then comes destruction.

But oh let me tell you, there is life after anxiety and depression. It tries to creep it’s head but is no longer my identity. This is why .

See Jesus is one of those top notch builders . He not only builds the home , he is also there giving you strength and slowly revealing to you progress. Along the way, others who have had him come and remodel their homes,brings words of affirmation to assure you that you are in good hands . Your community reminds you to keep a good line of communication at all times with the builder , because I mean …. This is a God size job after all.

Today my friends God is asking , do you want to be healed ?

God is asking , are you willing to let that house come down and allow him to rebuild it this time?

Are you half sick like I was so many years , not ready to go all in and let the lord transform from the inside out.

For me, I first had to read some reviews. I needed to know others experience . I needed to know what this builder could do. That’s why it so important to share your testimony.

When you are ready to seal the deal.The first step is believing . John 3:16! Then Get to know him and trust him. Daily call the builder and let him inspect and handle all the repairs needed and thank him for a job well done. Read the instruction book daily in order to get to know your new home and the one who built it. Remember, Reading this contract and knowing exactly what is being offered also reminds you of what you are promised.

The good news…

The terms of agreement is infinite so no need to worry about renewing your contract ❤️.

Hebrews 3:4 For every house is built by someone, but God is the builder of everything.

Rebuilder by Carrolton Band
Family DIY project 2019

The perfect Artist Part 1

The other day Nathan came downstairs to the kitchen and said , “ mom, Autumn asked me how do I draw so good. I said .. “well, what did you say ?” He said , I told her I stopped complaining about not being able to draw and started watching step by step videos on how to draw my favorite pictures.” Then a big smile was on my face … which only meant a lesson was coming from this.
I said , “that’s a really good life lesson you taught your sister by answering that way..” then I continued … “ isn’t it weird that when you used to draw a picture by looking at the finished picture beside it , you would get so frustrated and the picture would not look like the one you were trying to imitate? “ he said “yes” and I said “ you also realize that when you were doing the step by step videos you only got better when you FULLY followed the steps , even the ones you didn’t think was necessary .”
He then said “oh yeh , that’s true , I also started drawing other pictures better because I already knew the first few steps from the style of pictures I drew before , then I would get stuck and have to watch a video to finish the picture anyway because every time I have a new picture there is extra steps .

That’s when the revelation hit …. the perfect Artist already sees the perfect masterpiece , His finished work , even if the outsider looking in does not . Including ourselves . We are a complete masterpiece in Christ Jesus finished work , now the steps to get to that perfect picture the Lord already sees is ordered by Him, the perfect Artist. If I , Cheryl Diane Stripling was given the absolute entirety of what my life will look like , I would rely on my own understanding and way to get there . I would make a mess of it on my own . I need guidance from an artist that can see the end result and show me step by step how to get there . Only an artist who can actually see his finished masterpiece be able to order the steps on how to get there .

You see . God is the perfect artist . When we are saved we have a clean slate and are complete in Christ Jesus . God then takes us step by step through a process until we have the perfect picture of completeness he created for us. If we skip a step in that process , we quickly realize the picture isn’t exactly turning out the way it was promised .By then, we can either stop and give up, never seeing the finished masterpiece that God already intended for our lives . Or we erase back to the steps where we marked too soon and out of the perfect order then continue drawing , knowing that even if a step does not make sense , it is absolutely necessary. See God can see the end result ( the perfected work of art ). He is also able to know the perfect steps necessary to get there, even steps that we would have never thought of ourselves .

Many times in life , like my son Nathan, I would take the steps that made sense and I believed was necessary to get to the final picture . I would also rush through a step believing I already knew better, only to find myself erasing and going back to the step that was absolutely necessary . Then I realized instead of skipping steps and rushing along , I need to follow the process, because in reality it takes a heck of a lot longer when you skip steps and find yourself back at the point where you thought you knew better .

I needed that reminder today and If you needed it too then, whew… I’m not the only one who likes to think I can skip steps and the picture still turn out perfect.

If you have found yourself skipping through the process , trying to find loop holes or an easy way, only to find yourself stuck . If you see that imitating the steps of others without the same result, because you know that is not the way God instructed you to do it . Then I encourage you to not lean on your own understanding and take a moment to be still and allow the Lord to realign you to the place where you may have went off on your own course like I did. Then allow God to show you the necessary steps so you can grow in his perfect direction .

Remember, when an artist is the master of their craft and is absolutely perfect at what they do, they want you to imitate their perfect steps to reach a beautiful masterpiece . Have you ever said to yourself , “wow I did that” when you went to a paint night or did a step by step drawing . You see , the perfect Artist God can paint amazing pictures using your hands , if you are just willing to take the simple steps and know that the artist wants you to succeed . It may not always look like a necessary step, but trust God , he sees the finished masterpiece .

“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭6:33‬ ‭

Nathan’s Bob Ross drawing