Giving Up

One day My oldest child Nathan set up a little made up stage and asked for the whole family to watch him do magic tricks. We all gathered around him and watched in anticipation to be tricked. As he performed the first trick, he had some glitches and we could clearly see what he was trying to do . The next time he had this handkerchief and actually stumped me for a minute and then a pretend finger fell off his hand into his magic box. We had a good laugh , but it wasn’t until he performed his final trick that we actually were stumped. He asked for us to look at something in the distance and not knowing what to expect we did. Then he started this really cool quarter trick. First he had one quarter disappear, then he had two, then three , then they all vanished. I was like woah, that was actually good and I wasn’t expecting that. After finishing the trick, I said “how in the world did you do that?” for a minute there I thought this child had perfected slight of hand or something. After laughing from being able to trick us, he said “Mom, when I told ya’ll to look at that object, I quickly slipped a quarter under each of your legs, then when ya’ll were concentrating so hard on the coin holder trying to catch me, I would slide my hand under your leg grab another quarter .” I looked at him puzzled. How did I miss that?I thought I was paying attention.

That’s when the revelation hit.

A few weeks ago, I felt some sort of scheme was unfolding in my life and I thought I accurately depicted where it was going to come from, so I focused my full attention on that area. Only to find out two weeks later that although my intentions were right, I was still tricked and unprepared. I had literally stopped everything I was doing to really pray and keep my eyes open to this specific area of vulnerability. When I woke up this morning, I realized two weeks went by. I was neglecting the area I was growing in, to protect the area I was vulnerable.

The same look on my face when Nathan tricked me, was similar to the face I woke up this morning and made. How? How did I let the enemy trick me ? I was prayer purposefully, I was seeking an answer and being so watchful ? You see when the enemy showed himself in a distant area of my life that was not surrendered completely, I started trying to control it all over again. Believing if I prayed enough, or focused on it enough, that it would somehow change. You see, prayer works and so does staying focused, but the idea that my timeline or that my actions was going to change it,wasn’t.

You see, this area in my life has been one to break my spirit many times, my heart has crumbled, and I just want to ball up on cry. It’s one of those areas that take complete trust, because you can not change it on your own or in your own power. It’s an area where you have to trust God will work it all out, just like he did with me.

I know one day this will be a testimony in this area, but for now , it’s a place I decided to completely surrender to God. I felt as if I lost something , almost mourning having to let this fight go. Let this be up to God . Let this area go through the process. This is on of those steps that didn’t “feel” good but I have so much relief. It is not mine anymore, it’s not my responsibility, it’s not my project. This is a time where I can finally say that prayer and believing in God’s ability to do what he did for me again,for someone else,is Exactly what is needed right now.

In reality, I was never actually in control . I was never really going to change anything on my own and by my own ways. You see, the way Nathan got me distracted and ultimately tricked me by reverting my attention is the same way the enemy distracted me from my Calling , my message to seemingly “work” on something out of my control. This season is a season where I am meant to “speak up” I am meant to witness to the Goodness of God. Other people can not stop what God has started. My own strength is not needed in this fight, but my willingness to hold on to God’s.

This is not the season to give up and throw in the towel just because I have not seen the victory in the natural . My witness is not trampled by the actions of others, nor should it be hindered.

The thing about an illusion or trick, is that it actually didn’t happen. It is a way to distract to make you think it did. It is a device the enemy uses on God’s children to blind us from the true attack. It is a way for us to focus on the things that are already being worked on by God that is personal to distract us from the furthering of the Kingdom . For example:

The enemy gives you symptoms, to make you focus on a sickness that was already healed by the stripes of Jesus.

The enemy gives you anxiety, to worry about a care that has already been taken on by our Savior.

The enemy gives you depression , to distract you from the joy that is complete in Christ and the deliverance that is already yours.

The enemy gives you self consciousness and intimidation to keep you focused on what you can see then WHO YOU ARE. To distract you from becoming everything God wants you to be for the Kingdom.

The enemy uses guilt from your mistakes to take away the perfect peace and assurance of the Righteousness and forgiveness you already have in Christ.

The enemy also gives you a drive to be religious and completely busy with “God’s” work to distract you from fruitful works and Joy of your salvation .

Most of all the enemy likes to create an illusion that anything that strengthens your relationship with Christ in secret without being seen , is not as effective as being consistent by worldly standards and timelines.

You see brothers and sisters in Christ. the world is not run like the Kingdom. The Kingdom is not built by worldly means and schemes. The kingdom is built on spirit and truth.  The kingdom is not built on accolades and qualifications of this world. It is built on a solid foundation; it is built on the finished work of Jesus. It is built in secret and revealed in Public.  The kingdom is built with LOVE. We are witnesses to the glory and power of the Kingdom. We are lights to a dark world.

With the enemy’s trickery we have been building a Kingdom that “appears” Godly but without power, without signs and absent of Wonders. WE have built a Kingdom of worldly accolade with some hierarchy and religious qualifications.  We have puffed up when we must humble. We have controlled where we should surrender. We have become wise and have now become fools to things of God. Now is the time, Now is the time to realize the trick. Humble ourselves and repent (change our minds) about how Kingdom business is supposed to be ran. Not by human authority but by God.  Then, then we will not be carried by every wind and illusion from the enemy. We will Change the world not by our Power but the power of Christ that is in us.

United we Stand as the Body of Christ

Can you see me ?

As I laid down with my youngest daughter, Amaris, I realized she was peeking out at me with her eyes pretending to be asleep. I too started peeking out my eyes to make her laugh and out of nowhere I was really shocked to realize the difference in view when our eyes are squinted , one eye closed and other eye open. I started experimenting , because that’s what you do when you have four kids and things like this becomes cool. I did this several times , to just really capture what all I was missing through each perspective . To my surprise A LOT.

Seriously , before you continue reading , take a moment . Focus on one area and Squint your eyes , what do you see ? Now open them , what do you see ? Close your left eye , what do you see ? Then close your right eye , what do you see ? Now close your eyes all together ? I can answer this one for you here , you see nothing .

You see , that’s that’s when I realized . That is what is going on right now. We as Children of God have choices. We have a loving Father like that. We can choose to open our eyes and see the whole picture, we can choose to squint, keep one eye open or even close them all together . Even though this is absolutely a choice, even though we are already forgiven and we can make the choice , is it profitable?

I asked the Holy spirit ,What are the different types of people in this scenario?

I started writing and this is what I heard. The person with the squinted eyes is the person that is looking from afar, they are the ones that sees the injustice and when their eyes are squinted they can see what is in front with limitations. They are the ones who think they have both eyes open but fail to see what is above them . They see with both eyes but with vengeance as their first reaction . I was then reminded of when my children argue , they squint there eyes at each other to intimidate and all that does is cause the other child to also squint their eyes and builds up anger.

Then there is the person that sees only with their left eye or right eye, that is the person that can only see half the picture. They may have been raised only one way , they can not see both sides. You see they too have a choice to open their eyes , but they choose not to. You see whether you are looking only out of the left or only looking out of the right, both people are missing the full picture. They see half of what’s above and half of what’s in front, but they don’t see both sides. You see, we can not get a full picture of both sides if we aren’t willing to open both eyes. Some out of ignorance and some out of pride.

Then there are the people who close their eyes all together. They are in darkness, they are so spiritually blind that they only know how to follow others who are blind. You see, these are the people who can not see for themselves. They have loved their life always following blindly and never seeing. They close their eyes and also follow their heart , which is deceitful.

The problem here is . whether you are squinting, closing one eye, or are completely blind, you can not truly see what the FULL picture is in front of you.

Then we have the person who has both eyes fully Open. This person may have seen injustice for a long time and stayed silent. Even though you fully see, the time was not right because even though you could see with two eyes fully, you could not speak with the right heart.

You see, in a time of great injustice. A time where senseless murders and oppression are prevalent , it’s not only important to have both eyes open , but a heart that is in the right place. You must see that sensless acts are done to many people who do not deserve it. We must open our eyes and see not only what is in front of us, but all angles. Above, below and what is beside us. The only way to do that is to make the choice to open your eyes, look around, pause and really see what you are looking at . What is really going on?

Then before we speak, we have to ask ourselves, is what I am about to say going to turn this picture I am seeing darker and harder for me to see, or is what I am about to say going to brighten the picture and bring the matter into true focus.

You see when a soldier is aiming their barrel at the enemy , if their gun is not in focus they will miss their target. If the soldier is unable to see they won’t even know what they are aiming at , their true enemy. If a soldier is shooting without a clear picture of who their enemy is, then they may just shoot an ally on accident.

Brothers and Sisters in Christ. We have an enemy in this time. The same enemy that deceived Eve in the garden . The same enemy that stole everything God so freely gave her by whispering lies into her ear. Her deception also caused the downfall of her husband. Today the enemy is whispering in each person of God and we can either listen to or reject that voice. We have that choice.

The enemy is whispering to you that oppression is only for one type Of child and he did so strategically. We must know our Father’s voice in this time and not be led away like sheep ready for slaughter. I’ve been there and it almost cost me my life.

Remember the root of all that is among us, senseless murder, rape, sex trafficking, premature death, suicide, depression, fear , church hurt and racism, all come from one source the father of lies, of deception, the One who hates HUMANITY all together. He is the thief that comes only to steal, kill , and destroy… He is the Devil, Satan , Lucipher !

With that said, I can not end with a name like that because he does not deserve any more attention and just as quickly as we resist him HE must flee.

See church, We have a Savior who suffered the worst death, a death he did not deserve so that we could be free. We have a Savior who’s grace is sufficient for Such a time as this. He is King of all Kings and the king of darkness does not compare , not even a smidgen to Our Great Savior !

We have had our opinions, we have had our anger, we have had words spoken that only a time of great hate and a time of great anguish can bring about. I’ve been there. But now !

Now , while there is time to be in one mind and one accord, we must come together and fight the enemy together. Pentecost is coming and the significance of one mind and one accord hasn’t been greater than in a time like this. We had a true Passover, Easter and now a TRUE Pentecost at hand .

Church, do not miss out on a great time of revival , do not let the enemy steal what is rightfully yours in this season . BE ANGRY, HATE what is Evil but do not sin. Our God loves us so much that he didn’t want us to even avenge ourselves but to over come evil with GOOD. Venegance is the LORDS but we MUST get out of the way and pray , declare and bind what is not of God with the true weapons on our warfare.

In the time the enemy wants us to fight.


In this time the enemy wants us to kill .


In this time the enemy wants us destroy


In this time the enemy wants us quiet


What God asks us to do to overcome an army of evil doesn’t always make sense. Trust me , I understand that. But if God commanded Noah to build and Ark when there was no rain ever recorded, if God ask Moses to lead his people to A Red sea that seemed an impossible barrier that would give the enemies the advantage, If God told Joseph to forgive his brothers after all they did to him and feed them, If God sent Jesus to die for our sins when he was innocent so that you and me could be free.

Then I suggest we do it. I beg we do it.

When they did, what did not make sense. An obedient man saved all of mankind, a man with a stutter led the Children of Israel across a sea without one bit of moisture on their feet, a man sold by his own flesh and blood Became the right hand man to Pharaoh and he blessed his entire family through him, and because Of the greatest act of obedience of all time , a man that chose to die without sin , so that all our sins could be forgiven . The greatest hero of all . JESUS! What He did , made no sense. But because of Jesus we live forever.

We must not be the man who was forgiven of much and go out and demand from others who owe us. After that man’s debt that he could not pay was just forgiven.

Let’s do the opposite right now, and see a mighty move of God. Unite in arms Children of GOD Open your eyes see the full picture and examine your hearts. We have lived for this moment, we have anticipated this mighty move of God ! WE must not hand it over to the enemy.

A man of peace was brutally killed George FLoyd, a man who wanted to see God transform lives, like God did his. Let’s honor him the best we can and come together, to push back darkness with our light. For George and for many others. Let’s finish his mission.

The enemy wants us to take revenge in our own hands because scattered and alone fighting each other is what he wants. Even the enemy knows a kingdom divided against itself Can not stand. Let’s divide the kingdom of darkness family. Let’s see good win !


This is how we should pray today.








I command right now all eyes to be opened and all hearts to be guarded in this time. I cast out any root of bitterness the enemy has planted. I command every evil thought that has taken root to be burned in the name of Jesus.

I declare Children of God , we will not miss out on our promise land. Together, we will see a mighty move of God. WE won’t miss it ❤

I pray that the mighty battle plan of God be brought to all believers during this time, that we listen for his voice so we will see victory to ALL injustice. That every believer know that God is for them and wants his children to come close and be comforted and equipped with the next step. Cry out to our Father, he is waiting. In Jesus name , AMEN